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Second night of being utterly and completely exhausted by midnight. Woke up this morning horrbliy disoriented. Woke up earlier that morning around 7:49am going, "Holy shitfuck, I set the alarm last night right?!" before realizing I still had roughly two horus of sleep before the alarm went off. Then I woke up not remembering where I was supposed to work, what time I was supposed to go in, or if I could get away with sleeping for five more minutes. The dream I was in was not that bad, nor was it related in any way, shape, or form to this disorientation. I know tonight is the New Moon, but I normally go through varying emotional shifts, rather than actual physical affectations of this.... Am going tomorrow to get heamtite rings for myself to help cope with being "given" Express work, so hopefully this will go away soon. I feel that my bronchitis may be creeping back on me, with the physical symptoms I've been having, but at the asme time...things just aren't matching up.
I hope getting my vitamins tomorrow and the hematite rings will clear things up for me. Tammy tried to foist 20 hours of work onto me next week.... I told her that 10 was what I was willing to work. Sorta kinda counts as standing up for myself...but only becuase that would be the week I'd be getting "back" from my "vacation", and what good is taking time off if you just have to jump right back into things..?


I don't know. I'm dizzy, nauteous, and have to be up in around eight hours to run my errands. Sleep, why much you be so elusive? I want you back.... please.

iFail

Dreamweaver: 11 - 6
Golden Gates: 10 - 6.30
DeeP Comics: 11-7

I fail at errand running. I can't get my rings, I can't get my vitamins, I can't even bum around a comic book store for a few minutes while waiting on the other store to open up. It's too late to call in my Shift, but it's too early to go in. I hate Murphy, I'm hating both of my jobs, and if it wouldn't leave so many people high and dry, today would be a day to think about not existing anymore. I'm sick and fucking tired of this, and I hate being so close to my vacation time. I wish I had more leave time.....I seriously wish I did. I'd take tomorrow, plus Fri-Mon if I very well could.

I need a break, I need a vacation.